Life is a journey. A worn out cliché? Perhaps, but it does accurately describe this thing we call life. Each of us are on a unique journey. It is a lonely journey because no one can walk our journey but us. Evangelical Christianity taught me that the destination is the objective of the journey. Atheism taught me that the destination is not important. Life is all about the journey. If I walk my journey openly and honestly, I will end up where I need to be.
In Evangelical Christianity, the journey is the same for all, and everyone must follow the same straight path. Atheism taught me that every journey is unique and that the paths people walk are as many and diverse as the people walking them.
For most of my life, Christianity swallowed up who I was. I lost my personal identity. How could I not? Denying self is foundational to Christian belief. Once I left Christianity, I was then able, with much help, to begin to reconnect with who I really am. I am now free to walk wherever I want. I have freedom, and that’s the key to understanding the difference between my life as a Christian and my life as an atheist.
I get lots of emails and comments from people genuinely trying to understand how I went from being an Evangelical pastor to an outspoken atheist. Granted, some of them just want to find the “weaknesses” or perceived “errors” in my story so they can tell me I never was a Christian. However, I think most people genuinely want to understand where I am coming from.
Many people have a hard time wrapping their mind around my story. I know I am a rarity. There are a lot of Christians and younger preachers that leave Christianity and turn to atheism. Much rarer are people like me, who spent fifty years in the Christian church, twenty-five of those years as a Pastor. My counselor has told me several times that my story is rare, one not often told.
Over the past three years, I have learned I am not alone. While my story may be rare, there are others just like me. Old, grizzled veterans of the Evangelical trenches who are now atheists, agnostics, or deists.
Our stories are unsettling because people like us shouldn’t be atheists. We know the Bible inside and out. We have studied it for decades. We have read countless theological books. Who knows the Christian faith better than us? Yet, here we are, faithless.
I have put together a number of posts under the series title, My Journey From Eternity to Here. These posts are not necessarily chronological but they should answer most questions people have about my journey.
I have also written an ongoing series titled, The Fundy World Tales. This chronicles my life as a Christian and a pastor.
I hope My Journey From Eternity to Here and The Fundy World Tales will answer most of the questions people have. Rather than having to continually write out my “testimony” I will point inquiring people to these series.
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