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Why Christians Bombard Evangelicals-Turned-Atheists with Repetitive Words

jesus knocking on doorInsanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

— Albert Einstein

As an outspoken atheist and writer, I frequently come in contact with Christians who think they have a duty to express their opinions about my past and present life and what awaits me after I die. Couched in Bible verses and regurgitated religious verbiage, their pronouncements are little more gnats flying around my head on a warm summer day. Irritating, to be sure, but nothing that can’t be dispatched with a quick swat of snark or reason. On days that I am in too much pain to snarkily respond, I allow Christian drones to aimlessly buzz around my head, knowing that if I ignore them they will soon move on. On rare occasions, I unsheathe my sword and spend time cutting to shreds Evangelical presuppositions, proof-texting, and sermonizing. What remains the same, regardless of the level on my response, are the repetitive arguments and statements used  by Evangelicals to express their dislike/hatred of something I have written or said.

Come November, it will be eight years since I darkened the doors of a church; eight years since I wrote the infamous letter, Dear Family, Friends, and Former Parishioners, and let everyone know that I no longer considered myself a Christian; eight years of being inundated with emails, blog comments, and social media comments from Christians determined to show me the error of my ways. It’s been years now since a Christian has said something related to my deconversion or past life that I have not heard countless times before. After several thousand or more God wants me to tell you __________ emails and comments, I now just shake my head or laugh when I receive such things.

Occasionally, when I need a bit of humorous levity, I will respond, knowing that most Evangelicals interlocutors aren’t really interested in what I have to say. I have long since concluded that many Christian zealots love to hear themselves talk. Such people aren’t really interested in my spiritual state as much as they are reinforcing their own beliefs. My story — 50 years in the Christian church, 25 years as a pastor, and now an atheist — is disconcerting and troubling for many people. If someone such as myself can fall away, then so can they. So, when reading my story, they attack the me instead of wrestling with their own fears, doubts, and cognitive dissonance. This is why several former parishioners have told me that they can no longer talk to me. These people, who once called me pastor, preacher, and friend, find my current godless state so troubling that it causes them psychological pain. Instead of investigating their pain or examining their own beliefs, these former friends choose to end our relationship. (And I am fine with that.)

Several days ago, a woman who was a teenager in one of the churches I pastored in the 1980s messaged me, thanking me for sending her a link to some old pictures I had posted a year ago on Facebook. (Her father is the focus of the post Dear Friend.) Evidently, my message ended up in her spam folder and she did not find it until this week. This woman, now in her forties, made no attempt to talk to me about family or any of the other commonalities we humans share. Instead, she said, WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU? Immediately, my mind went back to the days when this woman was a rebellious, haughty, mouthy teenager — a constant pain in her parents’ asses. I envisioned her with head thrown back, curling her face into a snarl, saying, WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU? I did not respond to her, choosing not to waste time responding to someone who really isn’t interested in what I have to say.

Last year, my  two remaining Christian friends ran into a man I have known since the early 1970s. (I believe he is ten or so years younger than I am. I was mainly friends with his oldest brother and parents.) After trading pleasantries with my friends, this man said, CAN YOU BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED TO BRUCE? I am sure he heard about my deconversion from his parents. After receiving news of me leaving Christianity, his mother had sent me a blistering letter that suggested in no uncertain terms that I was under the control of Satan. A year or so later, I received an apology from the mother (a rare occurrence). While she could not comprehend how I could ever walk/run away from Jesus, she did accept the fact that nothing she could say would likely change my mind. People who know me well know that I am a man of deep convictions and intellectual acumen. They also know that I am rarely swayed by circumstance or emotion. When confronted with the possibility that I could be wrong, I tend to study the heaven out of the issue. I want to KNOW, so blissful ignorance or “faithing it” is not an option for me.

Just today, my doctor told me that my heart is skipping every fourth beat and that I might have an “atrial whisper.” He ordered an EKG and told me to me wait as he consulted with a cardiologist. He smiled and asked me if I had something to read. I laughed, and pointed to my iPhone. Having been my doctor for 20 years, he knows that I tend to study the life out of things. By the time he had punched in the phone number of the cardiologist, I was on Web MD and Wikipedia looking up “atrial flutter” and other related heart/health issues (more on this later). This illustrates perfectly how I tend to go after challenges to my beliefs or understanding. When I don’t “know” something, I make it my mission to increase my knowledge. Intellectual laziness, not ignorance is the problem. Despite health problems that increasingly rob me of the physical and mental wherewithal to learn and write, I am still driven to know more today than I did yesterday. This is why people who are close to me know that I rarely speak on a matter before knowing the facts. (I am not suggesting that I can’t be wrong or act irrationally. I can. Just ask Polly.)

Earlier today, a Christian woman (a friend of a friend) left the following Facebook comment:

I’m sorry that you have lost your contact with God. He’s still there, if you are interested. You may have stopped believing, but he hasn’t stopped existing or loving you. May God bless you. We have exchanged comments in the past and I don’t want to re-open that debate. This post just struck me as being very sad and empty, so I wanted to give a bit of encouragement. That’s all.

Here’s a woman who is incapable of understanding any other way of life but her own. For her, Jesus is the be-all and the end-all, the reason for getting up in the morning. As she looks at my life through her Bible glasses, all she sees is sadness and emptiness. She can not comprehend a good life, an honorable life, a blessed life, and a life of meaning and purpose without knowing Jesus as Lord and Savior. For her, my life does not compute. If she really cared about me as a person, she would trawl the depths of my story, and having done so she would then know that telling me, I’m sorry that you have lost your contact with God. He’s still there, if you are interested. You may have stopped believing, but he hasn’t stopped existing or loving you, will not elicit the desired response and will likely be viewed by me as the words of yet another tone-deaf Christian.

Christians need to understand that I am immune to their words. I have reached a point that I rarely respond to their comments, sermons, or attacks. I prefer to spend my time writing, chasing perfect photographs, or hanging out with Polly. if I sense a Christian sincerely wants to “know” then I will send them a few links to blog posts that I think will answer their questions. Sadly, few of these people bother to read the suggested posts. No need, right? They know what they know, even if what they know is dead wrong.

A better use of time for Christian zealots would be to seek out those who have no understanding of Evangelical belief and practice. Ignorance is the fertile ground of Christian Fundamentalism. Why tell someone the gospel twice before everyone has heard the gospel once, right? Well, I have heard it and preached it thousands of times, and when Christians continue to spew the same intellectually vacuous arguments and attempt to emotionally manipulate me, I don’t hear a word they are saying. Their lips are moving, but I ain’t listening.

I know that nothing I have written here will ward off garlic-immune Evangelicals who believe they have a God-given duty to put in a good word for Jesus. Until such people can dare to fathom the possibility of being wrong, there is nothing I can say or do that will change their minds. Only unrequited doubt will put them on the path to intellectual freedom. As long as their minds are shackled to God, Jesus, and the Bible they will continue to view me as an enemy that must be vanquished. Little do they know that they are tilting at windmills.

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    Karen the rock whisperer

    There are beaches (we have several in Northern California) where there is no net loss of sand over the course of a season. Winter storms do take some, and summer patterns deposit some. But over the course of the summer, say, the surf takes sand and the surf brings sand. Nobody has to bulldoze sand onto the beaches; they’re self-maintaining.

    All these Evangelical missives that would bring you back to the fold remind me of the waves on our beaches. Water comes in; water comes out; nothing changes. I suspect, if you thought yourself a mighty wave, it would be really frustrating. But it’s a sign of a system (or a person) in balance.

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    Zoe

    The Christian woman writes: “I’m sorry that you have lost your contact with God. He’s still there, if you are interested. You may have stopped believing, but he hasn’t stopped existing or loving you. May God bless you. We have exchanged comments in the past and I don’t want to re-open that debate. This post just struck me as being very sad and empty, so I wanted to give a bit of encouragement. That’s all.” – emphasis added by Zoe.

    I don’t think people who say these things realize their own truth. They do want to open the debate again or they would not bother again.

    Bruce you wrote: “Ignorance is the fertile ground of Christian Fundamentalism.”

    Zoe: So true. People are insulted by such a suggestion. When I accepted Christ as my Saviour I was a young teenager. I thought I was being given the truth. How could I know I was ignorant when it came to the Bible, to history, to the great diversity within the faith? I simply was not educated in such things. All I knew was that these people told me a truth according to them and I trusted them. So vulnerable. So trusting. Ignorant. There was a time I’d see an insult there. Not any more.

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    Appalachian Agnostic

    It is interesting that people think something “happened to you” as if you were the passive victim of some misfortune that caused you to begin doubting.

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    Mary Ellen

    I’ve been living with permanent atrial fibrillation for a few years now…most of the time, I don’t even notice or feel it…Be sure and research any anti arrhythmia drugs before you take them…some powerful ones are out there that may do more harm than good…my cardiologist is ok with me researching and telling him what I trust or don’t…I hope you have or find one like my Dr. Mathias.

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    JR

    Stopping and attempting to see things from some else’s point of view, no matter how different that is to yours, is one of the most valuable things to do. Even if you find their thinking depraved/stupid try and at least see where they are coming from.

    If some of the people you mention in this article did this, perhaps they wouldn’t find it so hard to believe that you could change your mind.

    Oh and if God was still there loving Bruce, why doesn’t he say a quick hello? Not to everyone, not to the depraved who ignore him, but just to a faithful servant of 25 years who started to doubt. Would that be so hard?

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    Sirius Bizinus

    This is a great post. I just got through a conversation with a couple Christians who were talking out of both sides of their mouths. It never ceases to amaze me to see firsthand story after story and example and example of Christians who say one thing and then do another. The Facebook comment you quoted here is a great example of that. It’s a drive-by guilt trip, intended to emotionally manipulate people painfully pack into the herd.

    I think it says a lot that when this tactic doesn’t work, Christians that use it instead use the failure to reinforce belief. I’m beginning to think that this might even be the primary tactic after all. If there is any cause-and-effect here, it’s that such flimsy exhortations categorically do not work on people who really used to believe. The only benefit is that it gives another excuse to say that, “Such-and-such is really the one turning me away, rather than my faith and its petty demands.”

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