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Questions: Bruce, What Will Happen to This Blog After You Die?


I put out the call to readers, asking them for questions they would like me to answer. If you have a question, please leave it here or email me. All questions will be answered in the order in which they are received.

Troy asked:

#1 Do you think your parents passing away at a young age made it easier to announce your atheism and on the other side of thing Polly’s parents were both alive until recently do you think this made her less vocal about it? (And I know writing that letter announcing your departure from religion was not easy, but pleasing parents is something that is qualitatively different)

#2 You often speak of your ill health, while I hesitate to ask it because I love you as a friend, do you want to blog to continue after you die or would you like it to die with you?

I don’t think the physical state — alive or dead — of our parents played much of a part in how Polly and I announced our loss of faith in 2008. If anything, our personalities determined our response. A story from our days at Midwestern Baptist College in Pontiac, Michigan, might best explain this. Not long after I expressed my romantic interest in Polly, we walked to an elevated drainage cover situated in the field outside of the dormitory. Sitting down, exactly six inches apart, (Please see Thou Shalt Not Touch: The Six-Inch Rule.) we “talked.” Well, I should say I talked. Polly quickly learned that her new love interest loved to talk, and talk, and talk, and . . . I learned that the beautiful dark-haired girl who would become my wife two years later was bashful, rarely saying a word. I thought, “does this girl EVER talk”? 🙂 Our personalities are very different. While I have won Polly over to my talkative side — at least when she’s around me — she’s still shy around people she doesn’t know. She’s content to let me be the talker in the family, even when I wish she would speak up. After forty-three years of marriage, we accept that we are who we are, comfortable in our own skins. Dammit, Polly, will you PLEASE tell your mother ____________? 🙂

This aforementioned story best explains how each of us announced our defections from Christianity. I wrote Dear Family, Friends, and Former Parishioners and started a blog. Polly? She said nothing, not then and not now. I suspect that people at her place of employment still think Polly is an Evangelical pastor’s wife. The people who work for her know that she is not a Christian, but outside of them, she has not shared her story with anyone. And she’s fine with that. And so am I.

Polly’s Fundamentalist Baptist parents (Dad died in 2020) know we left Christianity. They know we are agnostic atheists. However, we have NEVER had one conversation with them about our loss of faith. And we likely never will. That’s been the MO of our relationship with Polly’s parents from day one (which I will cover one day in a post).

Now to Troy’s second question. Troy is a good friend of mine. While we have never met face to face, we have become close over the years through this blog and Facebook. So I accept his question as coming from a heart of love and concern. If “Dr.” David Tee asked me this question, I would hear, “Hey godless motherfucker. What going to happen to your blog after God strikes you dead and you end up in Hell?”

Troy knows that I am in poor health. Tee does too, but he’s a heartless prick, so fuck him. 🙂 Troy knows my days are numbered, as do I. I hope to live for five or ten more years, but my body tells me that the hourglass of my life is running out. Knowing this, I have had thoughts about the future of this blog. Do I want it to live on after my death? Will Polly be able to maintain this site after my demise? One of my children? I don’t know.

I know I don’t want Polly to be saddled with the costs of maintaining this site — roughly $125 a month. I know that once I am gone, readership numbers will drop, as will donations. That’s just the facts of the matter. We live in a “what have you done for me lately” world. When Bruce Almighty is turned into ashes, I hope people will mourn my loss. However, I know that readers will move on. No new content, no reason to come to The Life and Times of Bruce Gerencser blog.

My thoughts are this: I need to leave behind detailed instructions on how to move this to a cheaper (and slower) web hosting service. Or, if given time before I die, I will do this myself. This would reduce costs to less than $20 a month, leaving Polly to decide later if she wants to delete this site. Die! Die! My Darling! (Polly will understand this movie reference.)

I’m not sure how I feel about being memorialized after I kick the bucket. That said, I know my writing may help others after I go over the rainbow in the sky (I’m running out of synonyms for D-E-A-D). It will be left to Polly and my family to decide the future of my “ministry.” Maybe it would be nice if this blog outlived me for the sake of my grandchildren. DO IT FOR THE CHILDREN, BRUCE! 🙂 I want them to “know” my story, to read and understand my life. (Most of them were born after I left the ministry. They have no idea that Grandpa was once a Baptist preacher.) Of course, if I finished my damn book, I could autograph copies for my thirteen reasons to get up in the morning. Okay, nineteen reasons — though I can hardly even get off the couch these days when my six oh-so-awesome kids come to visit me to see how soon they will be collecting their inheritance. 🙂

Bruce Gerencser, 66, lives in rural Northwest Ohio with his wife of 45 years. He and his wife have six grown children and thirteen grandchildren. Bruce pastored Evangelical churches for twenty-five years in Ohio, Texas, and Michigan. Bruce left the ministry in 2005, and in 2008 he left Christianity. Bruce is now a humanist and an atheist.

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    I hope your blog is at least online after you’re gone. Everything you’ve written is helping someone, somewhere.

    I mention to my husband things about after he dies, and then I say, “But I may die first!” I remember my mother declining and I felt sure she wasn’t long for the world. But then my dad got cancer and died first. And she actually lived another 7 years, to be 81.

    I don’t know about you Bruce, but while the thought of death isn’t great, I fear we humans have destroyed the planet enough to make things very, very hard for our descendants. And the open rush to embrace authoritarianism causes me to fear what type of government will be screwing everyone over during the climate crises. So then I feel almost relief at getting closer to the end. sigh I guess we just have to fight until we can’t.

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    Davie from Glasgow

    People say that once something is online it is there for ever. But that’s absolutely not the case. If certain fees aren’t kept up it will disappear. And while the choice lies entirely with the creator, I think it would be a great loss to lose all of Bruce’s writing. Maybe when the book comes out that loss would be less of a problem. But either way, my view is that the world would be a poorer place for not having that story, and that accessible & insightful writing, still in it.

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    It would be nice for your grandchildren to have access to your writing so they coukd try to understand you as adults, rather than through the eyes of children.

    Additionally, your writing has helped people you have never met in person, and I think it would continue to do so.

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      MJ Lisbeth

      Bruce, I hope that you live long and that your pain is abated. That said, I hope this blog continues—not only for your grandkids, not only for us and not only for the story of your journey from fundamentalist minister to atheist and the child of a dysfunctional family to a loving grandmother. It is vital as a testament to the need and power of seeking truth—one’s own and writ large—and the will to change. We love you, people you (and the rest of us) may never meet need this.

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    Ann Lo

    I hope this blog remains on some platform somewhere. Or maybe someone can turn all the posts into a big, big book or a multi-volume set. All the comments have to be included too, so maybe it could be a series of books. Call it the Bruce Britannica. 🙂

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    May you live a long, but less painful, life, Bruce. After your death, I hope your blog continues, if there is anyone who wants to take it on. Failing that, since I’m sure it’s a very big commitment, I hope what you will have already written remains accessible. Your grandchildren would know you far better if they were able to read what you have written, and know how much you have helped people sort out their problems with religion through your blog. I have no doubt that people would continue to read and find answers to their questions, as well.

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    Maybe you want to have a conversation in advance with the folks at Their WayBackMachine might be just the place for this blog when you can’t write in it for whatever reason. Because it is a valuable resource for people questioning a high demand religion.

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    I also think your writings are of permanent value and could continue to help people long into the future, so I hope they’ll continue to be available. On the other hand, you’ve already done far more for atheistic and religion-questioning people than most people ever aspire to, and you have a hell of a lot to cope with. So you have every right to prioritize your own needs.

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    Thanks Bruce for taking the question in proper context. It would be nice if the blog could continue, and the time to discuss is the present. Sadly considering the expense, the blog seems doomed to fade away. Maybe you could have a section in your book with some of the more salient posts, cut and paste is the easiest writing.
    Just an idea but perhaps the Clergy project could take it over. I believe you’ve helped more people than you know.

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    There is nothing outstanding about this blog. Just another atheist site. It doesn’t matter if it dies, so quit acting like it does. In the end, no one will care. Don’t fool yourself into thinking otherwise. Sorry

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      Bruce Gerencser

      You are not “sorry,” so don’t pretend you are. I answered a reader’s question. You don’t find my writing valuable, yet you read it and even leave comments. Hmm …

      What matters is that my writing in this moment provides a unique perspective on Evangelicalism and the Independent Fundamentalist Baptist (IFB) church movement; that of a former insider. That my writing is well received speaks for itself. Just today, I talked with a video company that is doing a documentary on Lester Roloff. Evidently, I have something to add to the discussion. Regardless, if you don’t value my writing, don’t read it.

      I will assume, going forward, you have nothing of value to offer to this blog’s community. Trust me, James, in the end, no one will care. Sorry 🙂

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